2:58 am
Another week down and I’m a little disappointed in myself. This last week didn’t go according to plan by any stretch of the imagination. I started off well on Tuesday and ate according to the calorie range I’ve given myself. I’m still enjoying good meals that are good for me. But on Wednesday we ran out of “good” groceries and all I had left to me where canned vegetables, ramen noodles and instant mashed potatoes (which I have an addiction to and have a hard time portioning. Also, what are mashed potatoes without loads of butter). So…we went out to eat. I ate within my calorie range and was proud of the fact.
On Thursday my progress took a downturn when I got lightheaded during a workout and got close to passing out. What happened? I’m not sure, but it only got worse.
On Friday I was weak and dizzy throughout the day so I decided to forgo the walk again. We again decided to eat out not having gotten more groceries. This time I slipped. Big time. I’ve been craving chocolate so badly the last few days that I decided to get a chocolate chunk cookie. Deciding that one wouldn’t satisfy that craving…I decided to have 3. After deciding to have three I decided that I’d blown the day’s calories altogether and decided to have a cheeseburger with extra cheese instead of a chicken sandwich, but I still ordered the large french fries. Having made this decision I also decided on a full sugar soft drink with added flavoring and extra calories. After all, I’d already blown it and decided today would be a big cheat day.
Saturday rolled around and still no groceries. Still not feeling 100% so no walk again. I’ve still not gotten into that zone where I don’t crave high calorie foods so I was in a no holds barred glutenous frenzy. I decided that day to order out my current favorite food…chinese coconut chicken with a sweet creamy coconut sauce. I even asked for extra sauce aka extra calories. I also had the steamed dumplings and spring rolls though I made myself feel better by sharing with my better half.
Sunday I ate leftover coconut chicken so as not to waste “good” food. No workout this day either.
Monday after satisfying my wanton cravings in the days before I ate moderately healthy meals within decent calorie ranges. I decided that because I’d missed the majority of the week I wouldn’t exercise again.
The moral of this story? Be prepared folks. Stock up on your favorite healthy foods and be vigilant when you’re running low. I typically make a meal plan and make sure I have enough for a variety of choices. Once I’ve eaten healthy foods for a while I usually come to a point where I only crave good foods or have more resistance to bad behaviors. Food becomes fuel instead of reward. When in this zone I’m more likely to take a trip to the grocery store than a trip through a drive thru. I’ve obviously not gotten to that point yet. It takes a little while. I don’t normally allow myself to get this low on groceries either.
I’m not sure what caused the dizzy spells. I expect that I wasn’t drinking enough water or wasn’t taking in enough calories though I’m not sure why it lasted several days.
Despite my failure to maintain healthy habits this week I’m not giving up. I still want to keep up the little “wins” that I’ve experienced. That’s important to me. I plan to buy some prepackaged frozen meals for when I have the “don’t wannas”. I pledged to tell you the good, bad and ugly of my journey so here it is. This week, however, wasn’t a total loss.
The weigh-in this week:
285 07/22/2024
284 07/29/2024
280 08/06/2024
4 pounds down from last week and closer to the mini goal I’ve set at 275lbs.