We all know I have bipolar disorder. But, it’s not my only neuroses. To my own detriment I belong in People Pleasers Anonymous. I say “yes” to just about anything if I feel it’s what the other person really wants. Why do I feel the need? It obviously stems from a need for acceptance, but […]
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2024.07.29 One week in. Can you even tell a difference? Well, hell yeah. Believe it or not I’ve noticed more than a few things. On day two I woke up without pain in my stomach? Lately stomach pain and severe bloating had become the norm and I always woke up hurting. But that day it
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2024.07.27 1:00 am I’m in a contemplative mood tonight. Feeling OK mentally. (Thank you, God). [Iridescent – Linkin Park] So… I went to therapy for the first time in years. It was surprisingly a good session. We discussed work, which has been weighing heavily on my mind lately. Think anvil with the Titanic attached…that kind
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After hours when darkness falls I whither with the light. My thoughts sink, my mood plummets, the fear comes to visit and I feel hopelessly alone. Some nights are better than others. Pouring out my heart here seems to ease the fears even though it’s a one sided conversation. In a way I’m still as
One of my biggest fears and the thing that causes me the most anxiety is the fear of judgment. I don’t want to be thought of as lazy or uncaring, stupid or…fat. But, I am in fact fat. Is it too much to ask that people think of me as just me and not as
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2024.07.16 10:24 pm Introduction to my personal logs: While I like to write about specific topics I also like to write down my thoughts as they come to me in journal entries. These won’t always be polished or any set length. I like to write down the start and end time of my writing no
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Let me begin by saying I’m not a doctor. I’m not a medical expert. I’m not a nutritionist nor do I claim to have the answers. Please consult your doctor before beginning any weight loss regime for your own personal care. This is my trip through life. (Isn’t the word “journey” overused by now?) Living
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For us Bipolar folks it’s important to take your meds. That’s’ a whole lot easier said than done as there’s good, bad and ugly with bipolar medications. The first idea that there was a problem with my mental state was the depression and anxiety. That’s typical of bipolar disorder as we don’t often complain about
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Let’s talk about the mad in our madness. Bipolar anger or rage is the scariest thing about living with bipolar disorder and the primary reason that bipolar disorder gets its negative stigma. Most people aren’t afraid of someone who’s maniacally happy, right? It’s the anger that sticks out in the minds of people. So, what
